The Thread About Depression (Serious)
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I hope you enjoy the cottage, Steph. Hang in there.
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Thinking of you, Steph. XO
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Oh, Sweetie, I'm so sorry. It does get better, really.
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never/ever wrote:Have you got any help in regards to managing your financial situation Nd that of your brother's if it does come down to bankruptcy? Restructuring debt payments could help you giving you.
I didn't explain that correctly, sorry.
With my brother's estate, I will likely file bankruptcy.
With my husband's estate, I didn't go to the attorney - I just started dealing with the collectors one by one, myself (and not right away - the phone was ringing and ringing every day for a couple of months until I was ready to deal with it). Someone had told me, and it has born out so far that when I tell them he's deceased and I can't pay, they ask me to send them paper and what they do is write it off. That's the way they do it in Canada, apparently - thank God.
I made a few more calls today. I cancelled my cable TV.....as much as I dislike dealing with them, they were very nice to me (as everyone has been, when I explain my situation) - they waived the disconnect fees, and they're sending out a truck this evening to pick up my 2 cable boxes, so I won't have to schlep them on the bus (or ask someone for a ride). Amazing.
That's maybe the one positive thing in all of this - my faith in humanity has been somewhat restored. Just when you think the world is TOO fucked up, you learn that it's not ALL bad.
My bills will still exceed my income, but I just might make it thru the winter. Over the past few years with my husband out of work and then ill, I've learned how to live pretty frugally, and I really don't mind it (except for the car thing!). It was my husband who loved spending money! It's all gonna sort out eventually, and in the Spring I'll be moving in with my sister and her family (in western Ontario) and things won't be so challenging.
Thanx again, all. You have contributed to my renewed faith in people.
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Forgot to mention I had a wonderful weekend at the cottage with the kids, and my stepson's in-laws. The weather was perfect and the trees are so beautiful right now, as always on our Thanxgiving holiday. Izzy is so thoughtful, she even gave me little memento gifts when they brought me home. She's an absolute marvel.
I realized the other day it's been 40 years since my first cancer diagnosis. Pretty inspiring when you think about it. Long time. And I've been lucky.
I realized the other day it's been 40 years since my first cancer diagnosis. Pretty inspiring when you think about it. Long time. And I've been lucky.
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It's often a difficult time isn't it, Xmas? How is everyone doing?
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Okay here.
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Good!!
You come at the Queen, you best not miss.
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Someone in your line of work usually as their own man cave aka the shed we're they can potter around fixing stuff or something don't they?
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It beat me up. I don't go into the season looking to get knocked down. I always think "this time, I've got this", and sometimes I'm right.
But the erratic shifts at work in retail dicking with sleep patterns and assuring that I'm not eating properly doesn't help an individual keep her seasonal depression, bipolar disorder, and middle-aged woman hormones from pulling her down.
Most of the time, those closest to me get it, and try to help me just get through. And when I'm not being understood, I'm really frustrated. I've cried at work, I've cried on waking in the morning, I've cried while driving to work.
I resent that it winds up feeling like a time of year that is all about making the holidays joyous for everyone else, while I feel like my life force is bleeding out.
My behavior gets worse. I try too hard to create my happiness. I try too hard to escape.
But soon, everything will be different anyway. So I've got that to look forward to. January 4th I start school to get a cosmetology license. An idea I spent a chunk of my alleged adult life thinking I don't necessarily want to do. But the industry is different, and I'm different. I think this will be a good fit.
I figure I've got another two decades of being part of the work force. Going through a program that will take less than a year, in a field where I've already some knowledge, will be good. Absorbing a bunch of new information will be a better task for my kaleidoscope mind.
But the erratic shifts at work in retail dicking with sleep patterns and assuring that I'm not eating properly doesn't help an individual keep her seasonal depression, bipolar disorder, and middle-aged woman hormones from pulling her down.
Most of the time, those closest to me get it, and try to help me just get through. And when I'm not being understood, I'm really frustrated. I've cried at work, I've cried on waking in the morning, I've cried while driving to work.
I resent that it winds up feeling like a time of year that is all about making the holidays joyous for everyone else, while I feel like my life force is bleeding out.
My behavior gets worse. I try too hard to create my happiness. I try too hard to escape.
But soon, everything will be different anyway. So I've got that to look forward to. January 4th I start school to get a cosmetology license. An idea I spent a chunk of my alleged adult life thinking I don't necessarily want to do. But the industry is different, and I'm different. I think this will be a good fit.
I figure I've got another two decades of being part of the work force. Going through a program that will take less than a year, in a field where I've already some knowledge, will be good. Absorbing a bunch of new information will be a better task for my kaleidoscope mind.
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Happy to read the end of your post Sam - a definite light at the end of a tunnel?
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There is a funeral I am going to in a week and a half which will be very hard.
The wait is as hard.
Not precisely depression, but I am feeling the strain.
The wait is as hard.
Not precisely depression, but I am feeling the strain.
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Sorry, Carol.
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sending love and hopes for peace, belle.
and wishing you the best on the new direction, sam.
and wishing you the best on the new direction, sam.
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Thank you, Steph and kath. It is very much appreciated.
Peace, kath? I certainly hope so. Just to get out of this echo chamber would be something.
Peace, kath? I certainly hope so. Just to get out of this echo chamber would be something.
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Thinking of you, Carol. x
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Carol, the last funeral I went to was in some ways, really hard. But I needed to be there. And when I went to the wake, I realised I felt much better, as it was clear that after the grief, the healing process had begun. I hope you find your peace. Best wishes, always.
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Thinking of you, Carol and wishing you every strength.
Nonsense to the aggressiveness, I've seen more aggression on the my little pony message board......I mean I was told.
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Thank you, everyone. I'll do my best.
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Thinking of you Carol
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How's everyone getting on?
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Someone in your line of work usually as their own man cave aka the shed we're they can potter around fixing stuff or something don't they?
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