Thanks very much everybody, for kind words and wishes. I'm fine. Writing it down at last was very lightening, especially since I had been carrying the burden so long I was no longer aware of its weight. It was also nice to sit down for a few hours and knock out 3,000 words. It's been a while.
Would one of the admins do me the kindness of shifting this into Births Marriages and Deaths, so that it doesn't fall off the Ninnyland cliff, please? I may want to come back to this if anything else turns up, in my memory or in the world.
Just a day or two ago, for instance, I started looking through my mother's 'important' bag, where she kept things like policies and certificates, as well as mementos of my grandparents, and found, not only letters I'd written home from school trips, and one or two Dad had written to me, but letters between my parents when they were, ahem, courting in World War II. Once I realized what they were, I stopped reading, put them back in the pile, placed the pile and everything else back in the bag, zipped it up and put it away.
Some other time, maybe
In timeless moments we live forever
You can't play a tune on an absolute
Negative Capability...when a man is capable of being in uncertainties, Mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact & reason”